it's been a while

so I just realized that I haven't blogged in a while and I wanted to do a quick update of everything that's been going on. so when I got back to school initially, I got really homesick and gave myself a horrible headache. the first couple of days back were hard. i decided to go home that weekend and chill and hopefully push it out. i felt fine when I went back home but knew that I had to come back. when I drove back, I started getting a bad headache again and the pain came back. that week was okay. i had NO motivation to go to class which was horrible. i didn't really go to class much. i couldn't go home that weekend because it was natalie's birthday. that actually ended up being a lot of fun and i'm glad that i didn't go home. the next week i started feeling a lot better but I couldn't find any motivation to go to class. that pretty much brings us to where I am today. now i'm just getting pains in my chest because I've been drinking a lot lately. horrible. i also haven't been working out much either. fat. that's probably why i'm having bad heartburn right now. oh well. tomorrow i'm not going to drink or eat bad. i gotta do better! my eyes still feel funny though. i can't really explain it. i'm not losing vision or anything but i feel like my right eye is way more dominate than my left eye. i hope and pray that its all in my head. please God, let it be in my head. hopefully if I start eating better and drinking better i won't have pain in my chest. i need to be healthy.

starting tomorrow I have a lot of work to do in all of my classes. I have to go to class pretty much the entire time this week. I know I can do it! I have two homeworks due on Monday, a paper on Tuesday, test and homework on Thursday but then I'm going home on Thursday. I hope that I can work out all four days that I'm there. Not just a lame workout but a legit workout where I can lose a few pounds. I just need to make sure that I cut the drinking out. i don't even want to know how much i weigh right now. i only have one more semester left, I gotta finish off with a bang. unfortunately I've been too busy worrying about my social life and not my academic life. hopefully tomorrow starts that. fortunately, my homesickness is starting to go away and I don't have any crazy headaches. yes. i love it.

prayers:
-for motivation, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE give me motivation. i need it.

-my eyes; that they stop being gay and that i can be me again. honestly, since november 18th I have NOT felt like myself. pretty much everyday since then has been a struggle. some better than others.

-the roommates: we've been doing awesome lately and i love it

-that i continue to seek the Lord daily! and not weekly at church!

i love you all, thanks for everything!