the weekend

what a weekend. friday was younglife placement so carly and I went to jackie's mom's house to watch mccallum practice their skit and headed over to placement. it was really good! they placed 85 new leaders which is awesome! northwest austin definitely had the best skits! so after that, brody and I went home to change cause it was getting chilly and we came back up to the church. micah's 90s cover band was playing and they were called oj and the broncos. they were pretty good but I was over it. i was supposed to go to paige's party so i left with madison and we went. we were there for a while and then we went and picked up janice and went to kerbey lane. i was so tired so we went home after that.

saturday, round up 2k9. woohoo. went to players with brad, brody and cotton. after that, we were driving around west campus and saw a bunch of girls at abels so we went inside. we actually ended up staying there for a while. around 3:45 we made our way over to the zbt house to see the cool kids. man, they were awesome. i really enjoyed it. after that, we walked over to XO to use the restroom and sit for a bit. i was going to meet madison over at EX to maybe see cory morrow but it was $25 dollars so no. well i had been talking to natalie and she told me to walk over to KE and she could maybe get me in. well, as i was walking over there i saw kaki, anna, brock and brock's brother. they convinced me to go to maudie's with them. so i did. well, we ended up getting pulled over in west campus but he let us go. then when we went to maudies, we got carded twice and kaki got her margarita taken up from her. crazy. well, after that we went to sydney smith's party which was a lot of fun. after that, we went to the sig ep house for a bit and it was kinda lame. i didn't really know anyone there so i ended up leaving after an hour or so. i went to beta to see rob and there was NO ONE there. they convinced me to go to magnolia with them so i did. the end.

well, yeah. that was my first and final round up. so yeah, now i'm sitting in my bed looking at facebook pictures and listening to taylor swift seriously considering some maj life changes. i'm not healthy. i weigh the most i ever have. things need to change. i probably have high blood pressure. i gotta start watching what i eat and exercising. no more coke, no more fast food, more exercise. eek. that's pretty much what my life has come to. I'm going to take marketing pass/fail because I did really bad on the second test. right now, my average is a 70 in that class. i have to make a B. i mean, it's not going to be a big deal. i will still graduate and if i don't get into grad school then I can just teach. i'm not worried about it. God will have my back! i just really want to get to the summer. now, it's pretty much a race to the finish line. i just have a couple more tests in a couple more classes and then things are pretty much done. but yeah, speaking of life changes i definitely told myself that i wouldn't worry about the little things and love more and more. i think i've been doing a good job. i'm going to try and not be in such bad moods anymore. it's good.

i'll update lates. i decided that i'm going to chi-o backyard bash. peace out studying.

springy break 09

so I'm up late and I figured I do a recap of spring break oh nine.

friday - i left austin way to late and hit a lot of traffic going into houston. but, i did take grand parkway to the tollway which i will start doing from now on. it's amazing. when i drove in, i went straight to gringos with my mom and aunt anna for din and drinks. after that, i FINALLY got to see kailynn. she's beautiful! she's got a lot of hair and looks like steven. it was awesome. i got a text from mom and she said that she was by herself at bravos so I went by there and had a drink with her. after that, i went back to grandma's house and watched role models with steven and monica

saturday - did NOTHING all day. turned down a suite at the rodeo to go see ace enders in spring. i drove almost two hours to see a 45 minute show. i hope he knows how much i sacrificed to see him! oh well. it was damn good and of course, i was a little girl and didn't talk to him. but! i did take a picture of his license plate. after that, i went back to gmas house and hung

sunday - woke up and went to breakfast with the fam. afterwards, went to best buy with my mom where she bought me summer heights high. went to sam's and then she told me that they wanted to buy me a new car. after that we went to grandma's house for steven's birthday dinner. after that i think i went home and then came back to the house and spent the night.

monday - hung out at grandma's house and i think i went and worked out and i can't really remember anything else. oh yeah, i went to hooters with dj and it was okay...

tuesday - went to the softball game with gabby and jennifer. afterwards we went to bravos for drinks cause it was st. patrick's day! after that i was going to go out but that didn't happen. i ended up going to dj's and hanging out. went back to my house and slept

wednesday - went to lunch with the rents and then went to baskins and cavenders. i went to my aunt gina's house and my grandma cooked for me and i watched american idol with my aunt. i went to go hang out at dj's house and then rob and i went to raquel guardiola's house to watch a movie. this was when madison called me and told me that we were going to taylor swift together!!

thursday - worked out, went over to dj's house and watched lost with his dad. after that, went back to grandma's house and hung out for a while and watched the office. hung out at grandma's house and i think i went to sleep there.

friday - hung out in the morning and was getting ready for taylor swift. left my house and got to madison's house. we immediately went to the alford's and i got to see john which was great. i hadn't seen him in so long and it was the first time i had talked to him since the accident. his family seems to be in great spirits but my heart still breaks for them. after that we went to the rodeo and madison and i walked around for a while. i've been hanging out with madison a lot and have enjoyed it. she's so easy to talk to and she's a really good friend. the concert was good. taylor swift is amazing and my new crush. i can't stop listening to this one song called breathe. after the concert, i drove home and got home pretty late. on saturday i woke up, my parents went to the beach so i just went to my grandma's house and hung out there all day. i was waiting for the evening because i was supposed to watch the game with dj. i picked up din, watched the horrible game in whcih we could've won and then went back to my house.

sunday - woke up and laid around. went to a crawfish boil in dickinson with monica's family pretty much the entire day. after that, i went back to grandma's house. steven then picked me up and we went to my cousin's house and then to taqueria. i slept at grandma's and it was not good sleep.

monday - woke up and did a lot of random stuff and didn't come back to austin.

tuesday - came back to austin. without a new car. and still feeling a slight amount of dizziness.

in a nutshell, that was my spring break!

what i'm listening to lately

so what have I been listening to lately?! a lot of good shiz, here it goes:

kate nash - wow, this girl is legit. she's from london and i love her music. we get on and foundations are my favorites. www.myspace.com/katenashmusic

kings of leon - this band owns! and they are from the united states! my favorite song is use somebody. i love this song! www.myspace.com/kingsofleon

taylor swift - yep, i've been listening to a lot of taylor swift. what can i say, she's awesome and i'm seeing her in concert on friday night at the rodeo for free with madison! thanks madison you are the best!

MGMT - this band owns as well. they are pretty weird but awesome.

hot chip - i kinda saw them at acl but didn't start listening to them until recently. check them out


that's it for now! i'll be back with more soon

my obsession

so the title of this post is my obsession. what is it?! what could it possibly be?! bwahaha, emo. if you don't know, the early november is my absolute band since i can remember. well, i can actually remember. here's my story:

so when I was a junior in high school, rob and i started getting into the whole "emo" scene. even before that, we started listening to those kind of bands. well i remember one night i was staying over at rob's house and that was when WinMx was big. WinMx was a place where you could download music from and we abused that. well i was searching for new bands to listen to and i decided to type, yes i definitely typed this, emo. when i typed emo, the song open eyes by the early november came up. it was the first one that came up so i decided to download it. little did i know this would become my all-time favorite song ever, yep, it still is.

so after i downloaded this song and enjoyed it, i started to download more of their stuff. i liked a lot of their music. well a year had passed and I really started liking them more and more. so this one weekend during senior year i went to austin to hang out and rob called me and asked if i wanted to go to the early november concert that sunday night in houston. i was like HELL YES. so we were still in austin and we had to drive all the way back, shower, and then rob picked me up and we went to the engine room (rip). that was one bad ass concert! hawthorne heights was playing so it got extremely crazy. well that was my first of four early november concerts. it was at that concert that i got the entire band to sign my cd. it was awesome. i still have that cd case in my truck right now, signed by ace, sergio, jeff and joe.

the next time i saw TEN was in december of my freshman year in college. i woke up that day and told myself that that was the only thing on my agenda. i woke up, ate at wendys and walked, yep walked, to emo's on sixth. i ended up being like fourth in line and i got there pretty early. what the heck. well that was a pretty kick ass show. it was the only concert that i was able to document. it was on a monday and i missed byx meeting because of it.

the next time i saw TEN was during my sophomore year at antone's in austin. i was sick at the time and it was really cold. i remember that amanda neugebauer dropped me off. TEN was actually playing with cartel so it was a great show. i had missed them when they came to houston during spring break that previous spring. for some reason they always come to texas during spring break. well, it was a great show.

the next and FINAL time i saw TEN was during my sophomore year spring break. i decided that I didn't want to do anything that SB because I really wanted to see them. if i had had a working vehicle i probably would've traveled around texas to see them but i didn't. well this show i told myself that i wanted to be the first person in line. i wasn't. there were two girls in front of me that were there to see the rocket summer. needless to say, that was a great show. the rocket summer rocked the place and then TEN came on after them. finally, a show that TEN headlined. i didn't know that this would be the last time that i would see them live. after that show, i just sat in my truck while it was raining and reflected on a lot of things. it was kinda surreal. oh well, that's way emo. it was a few weeks later when i found out that they were going on an "indefinite hiatus." pretty much, they broke up. i was broken. damn. they were my favorite band and i loved them a lot and i didn't get to meet them really and i was pissed.

i guess it was during the summer that i found ace enders' new band called ace enders and a million different people. i actually liked them. just my luck, ace was coming to austin in november of my junior year. i immediately jumped at the opportunity to go and see them. it was a pretty good show. its like ace is starting over from the very bottom and working his way up but doing it differently. better, i like to put it. i ended up meeting ace and needless to say, it was the most awkward moment of my life. i don't get star struck really but when it comes to this guy, i totally am. he's my all-time man crush. all-time.

i think he actually played during spring break of junior year but i went to colorado so i didn't get to see him. then, they played during the summer when i was at camp so i didn't get to see them either. wamp wamp. so that brings me to today. i just got back from seeing ace enders at the java jazz coffeehouse in houston. i ended up getting there a little late because i couldn't find it. i'm stupid. oh well. it was a great set but i was there by myself. here are some pictures of tonight taken from my phone. the last picture is a picture of a new jersey license plate. when i saw the van i knew it was ace and his wife's so i took a picture of it. when i went to TEN's last concert my sophomore year i took a picture with my ghetto razr and used it as my background for as long as the phone worked. when i saw this car tonight i immediately knew i need that as my background. i ended up having to bring my truck in front of it so i could get enough light.






so now i want to do a top 5 all-time favorite early november songs!!! woohoo it's honestly hard to pick a top five but here it goes:
5. i want to hear you sad - this is an oldie but goodie. everyone loves this song because its one of the most recognizable early november songs out there

4. figure it out - this is a really great song. the only downside is that its way emo but you know me, i can definitely relate

3. baby blue - OMG there aren't too many songs I can rock out too better than baby blue. its on my workout playlist and i always go hard when it comes on. its also a great song to see played live

2. pretty pretty - you most likely wouldn't know of this song unless you are a true fan like i am. this song is way old school as in i think there were only three people in the band when this song was made. its a great great great song! i never got to see it played live though.

2. ever so sweet - i told you i couldn't make this list just five. i mean, just listen to the emotion in this song. ace played it tonight and i almost...well you know.

1. open eyes - like i said earlier this is my all-time favorite song. i could listen to this song on repeat. unfortunately, i NEVER got to see this song played live by the band but I have a video where ace is in his basement and he's playing it. from that late night that i first heard it at rob's house to listening to it right now, it never gets old. the weird thing is that there are a few different versions of the song out there on limewire but I have one specific version that I like. i think i have three different versions of it and they are pretty rough. i remember when we got our new computer i told myself that open eyes would have to be on every cd that i burned. for a while, i definitely did that but then stopped. it's an amazing song that i have enjoyed for the past six years.

if you would love for me to make your a cd of all of my early november favorite, just ask cause i would love to.

"...and through this sea of fingers, i'll find my own real life"

swear it all over again

so yesterday's post wasn't really about my life so I wanted to update. slash i secretly avoiding studying at all costs. i have a management test tomorrow that i do not want to take. i just want to make a B in the class. i'm not striving for anything crazy. we'll just see what happens tomorrow. i made a 78 on the last test and i hardly studied. seriously. i didn't study. i drifted off there for a while and now i'm back. well here's the thing. tonight is prevo's birthday dinner at 7 at pappacitos. not only is it mexican food but the fajitas are two for one. and they probably have good drinks. and i didn't pay for lunch today. but DG has a date party tonight at this place and natalie really wants me to go but i don't know if i want to go. i need to study at least a little bit. i was going to go run, shower, study until 7ish, go to prevo's thing and then come back and study till about 1. i didn't run yesterday so i want to run today. i need to get rid some of the stress!! and then i haven't had a quiet time yet. i had to watch the entire american idol. i could've done all of that earlier but NO. i wanted to sit and watch tv and be lame.

i just really want to be home. i want to meet kailynn! i'm going to be honest, i didn't think i would make it to march. the end of january and the entire month of february have been some of the toughest times of my life. it's been a daily struggle not to just lose it. but spring break is finally here and i can go home for longer than four days. i have TEN days! i'll probably end up not coming back up here until that monday or even that tuesday. i don't have any class or anything. i'll make a deal with myself, if i go to class on friday, i'll miss class that monday. so i just checked and i have class on friday for both of my classes. that'll be good though. hopefully i will be able to knock a few of those nonverbal chapters out of the way over the break. that will be stellar. so when I got back to austin a month ago i just told myself that i needed to make it to spring break and i would be fine. now, i need to make it to easter (well, when i get back to austin) and then after easter, i just need to make it til the end of school! i have no idea what i'm doing this summer. i mean, i want to go back to camp just not in this condition. yeah, it sucks. but yeah, i'm pumped about going home. on saturday i'm going to see Ace Enders in Houston! omfg its going to be balls good. i am obsessed with that man.

ok so i need to decide what i'm going to do. i don't want to drive to pappasitos so i dunno. but then if i don't go to pappasitos then i can just study but i don't think i'm going to go to dg. if i didn't have the test tomorrow i would totally go but i'm afraid that i'm going to get influenced and then not wake up tomorrow morning.

hopefully my next post will be from home!!!! woohoo

my parents

so this is one of those posts that i've thought about writing for the longest of times, here it goes.

I have tons of memories of my parents. For those of you who don't know, my step-father is my Dad. I call him Dad because he has raised me since I was three years old. My biological father is more of a sperm donor and not a father. yeah, he stinks. So all the memories of I have of my parents involve my step dad. All of the memories I have of my real dad are of hurt, pain, loneliness and abandonment.

anyway, one of the things I will never forget as a young child is watching my parents dance. we would always go to weddings, quinces or just family gatherings and I always remember my parents dancing. the one song i will always remember them always dancing to is george strait's the chair. firstly, if you ain't from texas then you don't know how much this state is obsessed with that man. what a great musicians and us texans pay hundreds of dollars to see him in concert. he doesn't really play much anymore but he still lives in san antonio on a ranch. i absolutely love this song.



i even think my parents went to this concert at the rodeo. for the longest time, my parents have loved george strait and going to his concerts. i mean, what texan doesn't?
i remember sitting there as a young boy and watching my parents holding each other close and dancing. what a sight to see. my parents have definitely had some rough patches in their lives and are even currently going through one right now but i do know that they love each other a lot and that's awesome. i hope and pray that my parents spend their whole lives together. divorce sucks and i don't think anyone should get a divorce. if you love someone once then you can always love them again. this picture is circa 2005 with the grandchildren. they are much older now.

so yeah, there's my one sobby post about my parents.

typical sunday post

so i usually always post on sundays because I don't have much to do. well, I actually wrote a really long post earlier but I don't know what happened to it or where the draft went.

week recap:
-last week i had to study for my media effects test on thursday which was going to be balls hard. i studied well into thursday morning. i'm not sure how I did on it. it could either be really good or kinda bad. oh well. i didn't really get this section so i'll have to do better on next. i might haveve done well anyway.

-i was supposed to go out on thursday night but couldn't because i was too tired and feel asleep around 10. it was awesome

-dg lunch on friday, hung out with chad harkins, went to shady grove for dinner with besties, chilled at the house on friday

-played vball for a couple of hours on saturday, went to el arroyo for dinner with a big group, GOT AN EFFING TICKET. ughhhh. whatever

-went to church today and got rocked. that's always awesome. did nothing but run over to the girls house. cool.

so kailynn rae cavazos was born on friday! woohoo! a healthy baby girl! awesome! i can't wait to meet her! i'm going to go home either thursday or friday. i think friday so i can at least hang out with cotton for one more day. i'm excited for spring break and not worrying about much for a couple of days. exactly what I need. i just can't believe that spring break is already here! we've done eight weeks of school already! i'm gonna try and lose a couple of pounds while home. i need to lock it up. i've been lookin' a lil roundski if you know what i mean. i'm currently at spiderhouse/mia concert. that have been blaring mia's cds for the past hour. yes. so i have two tests this week that i need to study for. i think i decided that i'm going to try and dominate this marketing and finance classes. i can definitely make an A in finance and a B in marketing. i'm going to try harder in nonverbal to potential make an A. if i do well on the next two tests and we do good on the project, i should make an A. i'm not going to be a sketch student anymore. eff that! anyway, i'm starting to get creeped out by the characters here at spiderhouse. i mean, it's 12:30 in the morning on a sunday night, lord knows what kinda people are here right now. a lot of hippies, a lot of dreds, a lot of macs. you know, austin. oh yeah, and bad teeth.

well i got off a huge tangent and started looking at strake basketball videos. i think this post has run its course. peace

short, way short, update

for now, things are good. i'm not going to lie things are starting to look up. it's going to take sometime to get back to where I used to be but I can see that light at the end of the tunnel and that excites me.

this past weekend i went to houston for ozone dodgeball. it twas awesome! i saw some campers that i haven't seen in a while. i stayed with the silva's and they took way good care of me. these next two weeks before spring break are going to be crazy. i have a big test on thursday that I haven't started to study for. I have to finish a paper and a FIN hw before I start studying. i hope and pray that I do well. This class is one of the classes that i've been to the most so hopefully i'll do well.

this weekend is the first weekend i'll be in austin in like three weeks. the next weekend is spring break and i'll be going back to houston on that thursday. yayayay. i have two tests next week that should be okay. hopefully I can study better for those two tests than the first two i took in those classes. today i got one more step to graduating. now, all I have to do is turn in my transcript from ACC and i'll be approved to graduate. wow, i'll make another post about that laters.

ok well i'm going to go walk around the neighborhood. happy texas independence day! 173!