so I went home again this past weekend. well not for the entire weekend, just saturday and sunday. I had to wake up early saturday morning to go home with courtney and stacey. I got to TC around 11ish and tried to take a nap. I woke up around 12 and felt dizzy. oh well. I went to go work out for about an hour and it was a good work out. the party started around 3 and it was so much fun. my entire family was there and we had a lot of fun. the taco man was legit. I called dj to come by and hang out. good thing I did cause I don't think he would've done anything that whole day. i even won the hooters giftcard! woohoo!
finally after my mom was about to pass out (8:30) we went to taqueria with steven, monica and another couple. after that, we went and watched us beat ou! woohoo! we decided that we would drive out to galveston around 10ish. driving over there, i almost passed out because I was so tired. so we parked, got out and started walking. it was like dust bowl 09 out there. it was so windy and nasty. there were about a million mexican dudes out there and it was lame. i HATED it. long story short, it sucked and i was way tired. i got back to my grandma's house around 1:30 and just watched tv and went to sleep. i was awoken at 730 to my grandmother cooking breakfast and brea going crazy. ugh. now, i know why my neck hurts. i haven't been getting good sleep the past couple of nights. last night, the night before, and this past week because I had a really busy week with tests and other nonsense. this week I only have a hw and paper due so i'll definitely be getting more sleep. next week will be a little worst and the week before spring break will be bad but that's okay seeing as how I will be in tc doing nothing for ten days. just three more weeks and i'll be halfway done!
i'm pretty tired so I'm going to end this post early. i'm going to the eye doc tomorrow to get my vis checked out. hopefully that will go well. i'll definitely let you know tomorrow what happens. and hopefully I will be going to my first BYX meeting of the year. if they will still have me.
peace
Monday, February 23, 2009
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
this weekend
so i'm going to go home on saturday with courtney which is going to be great! we will probably leave austin around 10 or 11 and we will be home just for a day. hopefully the drive isn't bad. last time driving back up here was miserable. i'm glad that I can spend this time with steven and monica and the rest of my family. i'm not going to tell them that i'm coming and just show up on saturday afternoon. i'm going to probably just stay the night on saturday cause i didn't get to hang out with them much when i went home this past week. but i've got to lock it up. i need to study hard for my finance test and my nonverbal test so i can home on a good note.
i need to get my eyes checked. i don't know what the eff is going on but something is seriously wrong. which is causing me to have a headache and my eyes to hurt. i don't know if i need to go to the UHS or schedule an appt with an optometrist. i think i might schedule an appt at UHS and see what they say.
father, please I need you right now. please Father, heal me. I'm going to stay faithful and know that you will intervene on my behalf. keep me strong and don't allow me to stray off the path of righteousness and goodness. i could easily go off and be pissed and mad and do stuff that I shouldn't but I'm not going to let myself. i'm going to stay faithful and knowing that you are good and you will not let anything bad happen to me. I love you so much Lord!
i need to get my eyes checked. i don't know what the eff is going on but something is seriously wrong. which is causing me to have a headache and my eyes to hurt. i don't know if i need to go to the UHS or schedule an appt with an optometrist. i think i might schedule an appt at UHS and see what they say.
father, please I need you right now. please Father, heal me. I'm going to stay faithful and know that you will intervene on my behalf. keep me strong and don't allow me to stray off the path of righteousness and goodness. i could easily go off and be pissed and mad and do stuff that I shouldn't but I'm not going to let myself. i'm going to stay faithful and knowing that you are good and you will not let anything bad happen to me. I love you so much Lord!
Monday, February 16, 2009
currently speaking
so today is february 16, 2009. i still feel all weird inside. i don't have a headache but I feel weird. i don't know what to do. i wonder if i should schedule an appointment with UHS or not. I dunno what's going on. I hope that its all in my head and I can shake it on my own. I don't know how long I can do this though. I need to try and stay as busy as I can.
this weekend i went home. i actually left austin on thursday and stayed until today. on thursday i went straight to my grandmother's house and was pretty tired. i wanted to go work out with steven but it didn't happen. i went home and try to take it easy. i was hanging out at home and I finally got up to work out. i did pretty good. after that i went to gus' with my mom and it was a lot of fun. I got a huge chicken fried steak that I want to show you. it was ridiculous!
after my dad met us at gus' we went to bravos for drinks. i met up with a large group of hs friends and that actually ended up being pretty fun. after that we went home and fell asleep. the next morning i was awoken by my sister around 9:30. i was going to work out but started watching tv and by that time it was already 11. my mom was home. she wanted to go to lunch and go to the mall. we went to east star (i have a guilty pleasure for nasty chinese buffets!) after that we went to the mall and that was super lame. when we got home, I put on clothes to go work out and tried to meet up with steven so I went to gma's house. it was there that I found out that one of my good friends' little brother had been killed in a car accident earlier that day. he was only 16 years old. what a tragedy. pray for the alford family! they need it. a few minutes later, i found out that my younger cousin (sister) might have cirrhosis. i hope and pray that she doesn't. she's only 19 years old. well, steven didn't want to work out so i just hung around and then I went and worked out. i saw my mom there. i actually had a pretty good work out. after that, we went to gringos for din and drinks and then went to the spazmatics. it was pretty fun. i was supposed to watch andrew d play baseball the next morning in texas city but it got canceled which was super lame. i decided i would drive up to west u and have lunch with him and billy. we went to goode company and then the chocolate bar. it was pretty fun. they are a trip. when i got home, i hung out for a bit and then went to work out. afterwards, i went to my gmas'. she was about to leave to the game room but she told me that gabby was at fbc with chasity so i drove by there. they weren't there so i called gabby and told her that i wanted to come over to hang out for a bit. i went over there for about 45 minutes and we just talked. it was good because I hadn't seen her in a while. after that, i went home and took a shower because i told my grandma that we'd go to dinner with austin. we went to bravos and hung out there for a while. i didn't want to leave as soon as we were done because its not like we had anything else to do. so after that, we left and came home. lame. steven and monica were staying in a hotel so we didn't get to hang out much. i came home and just watched a movie and got stupid. for the first time in a long time i did something i shouldn't have. oh well.
the next morning i woke up and met my parents at taqueria for breakfast/lunch. after that, i went to grandma's but she wasn't there. i stayed at her house for a while watching TV. i then realized that it was pretty late (2:45) and i went home to shower and pack. i didn't make it back over to my grandma's house until like 4:30. by that time, monica and steven had made it back and they were putting together a dresser they had just bought. they convinced me to stay another night, so I did. i told my mom that i had went back to austin though so don't say anything!. we just chilled at the house and watched madea's family reunion. it was pretty lame. after that I just went to sleep. actually, i probably went to sleep around 12:30 which is pretty early. when i'm home i usually get tired fairly early. i woke up around 7ish because there was a lot of commotion cause the kids were getting ready for school. i ended up getting up around 9. my grandma cooked me breakfast and i hung out for an hour and watched TV. i ended up leaving around 10:45 from grandma's house. i forgot that my mom didn't have to work today so I had to play it safe. i feel like i was driving FOREVER. but it was really only three hours. i stopped in ellinger and picked up some hruska's and it was goooood.
so i still feel kinda weird. i dunno. i'm in the process of finding a christian counselor with the help of brett. this week is crazy though! this weekend is steven's baby shower. i really want to go but I don't want to drive. i think stacey is going home, maybe i can go home with her. i dunno though because i will only be here for one weekend until spring break. i dunno. i just really want to be there for steven and monica. plus, all of my family is going to be there so that would be awesome to be there with all of them. we'll see
prayer requests:
-for my current state of well-being. i'm straight trippin out.
-the alford family. they really need it.
-gabby, mu cousin/sister. she (we) are too young to be dealing with problems like these. please God, heal us. we need you soo bad.
-school. that i'm not a complete screw up and can finish strong.
this weekend i went home. i actually left austin on thursday and stayed until today. on thursday i went straight to my grandmother's house and was pretty tired. i wanted to go work out with steven but it didn't happen. i went home and try to take it easy. i was hanging out at home and I finally got up to work out. i did pretty good. after that i went to gus' with my mom and it was a lot of fun. I got a huge chicken fried steak that I want to show you. it was ridiculous!
after my dad met us at gus' we went to bravos for drinks. i met up with a large group of hs friends and that actually ended up being pretty fun. after that we went home and fell asleep. the next morning i was awoken by my sister around 9:30. i was going to work out but started watching tv and by that time it was already 11. my mom was home. she wanted to go to lunch and go to the mall. we went to east star (i have a guilty pleasure for nasty chinese buffets!) after that we went to the mall and that was super lame. when we got home, I put on clothes to go work out and tried to meet up with steven so I went to gma's house. it was there that I found out that one of my good friends' little brother had been killed in a car accident earlier that day. he was only 16 years old. what a tragedy. pray for the alford family! they need it. a few minutes later, i found out that my younger cousin (sister) might have cirrhosis. i hope and pray that she doesn't. she's only 19 years old. well, steven didn't want to work out so i just hung around and then I went and worked out. i saw my mom there. i actually had a pretty good work out. after that, we went to gringos for din and drinks and then went to the spazmatics. it was pretty fun. i was supposed to watch andrew d play baseball the next morning in texas city but it got canceled which was super lame. i decided i would drive up to west u and have lunch with him and billy. we went to goode company and then the chocolate bar. it was pretty fun. they are a trip. when i got home, i hung out for a bit and then went to work out. afterwards, i went to my gmas'. she was about to leave to the game room but she told me that gabby was at fbc with chasity so i drove by there. they weren't there so i called gabby and told her that i wanted to come over to hang out for a bit. i went over there for about 45 minutes and we just talked. it was good because I hadn't seen her in a while. after that, i went home and took a shower because i told my grandma that we'd go to dinner with austin. we went to bravos and hung out there for a while. i didn't want to leave as soon as we were done because its not like we had anything else to do. so after that, we left and came home. lame. steven and monica were staying in a hotel so we didn't get to hang out much. i came home and just watched a movie and got stupid. for the first time in a long time i did something i shouldn't have. oh well.
the next morning i woke up and met my parents at taqueria for breakfast/lunch. after that, i went to grandma's but she wasn't there. i stayed at her house for a while watching TV. i then realized that it was pretty late (2:45) and i went home to shower and pack. i didn't make it back over to my grandma's house until like 4:30. by that time, monica and steven had made it back and they were putting together a dresser they had just bought. they convinced me to stay another night, so I did. i told my mom that i had went back to austin though so don't say anything!. we just chilled at the house and watched madea's family reunion. it was pretty lame. after that I just went to sleep. actually, i probably went to sleep around 12:30 which is pretty early. when i'm home i usually get tired fairly early. i woke up around 7ish because there was a lot of commotion cause the kids were getting ready for school. i ended up getting up around 9. my grandma cooked me breakfast and i hung out for an hour and watched TV. i ended up leaving around 10:45 from grandma's house. i forgot that my mom didn't have to work today so I had to play it safe. i feel like i was driving FOREVER. but it was really only three hours. i stopped in ellinger and picked up some hruska's and it was goooood.
so i still feel kinda weird. i dunno. i'm in the process of finding a christian counselor with the help of brett. this week is crazy though! this weekend is steven's baby shower. i really want to go but I don't want to drive. i think stacey is going home, maybe i can go home with her. i dunno though because i will only be here for one weekend until spring break. i dunno. i just really want to be there for steven and monica. plus, all of my family is going to be there so that would be awesome to be there with all of them. we'll see
prayer requests:
-for my current state of well-being. i'm straight trippin out.
-the alford family. they really need it.
-gabby, mu cousin/sister. she (we) are too young to be dealing with problems like these. please God, heal us. we need you soo bad.
-school. that i'm not a complete screw up and can finish strong.
Sunday, February 08, 2009
it's been a while
so I just realized that I haven't blogged in a while and I wanted to do a quick update of everything that's been going on. so when I got back to school initially, I got really homesick and gave myself a horrible headache. the first couple of days back were hard. i decided to go home that weekend and chill and hopefully push it out. i felt fine when I went back home but knew that I had to come back. when I drove back, I started getting a bad headache again and the pain came back. that week was okay. i had NO motivation to go to class which was horrible. i didn't really go to class much. i couldn't go home that weekend because it was natalie's birthday. that actually ended up being a lot of fun and i'm glad that i didn't go home. the next week i started feeling a lot better but I couldn't find any motivation to go to class. that pretty much brings us to where I am today. now i'm just getting pains in my chest because I've been drinking a lot lately. horrible. i also haven't been working out much either. fat. that's probably why i'm having bad heartburn right now. oh well. tomorrow i'm not going to drink or eat bad. i gotta do better! my eyes still feel funny though. i can't really explain it. i'm not losing vision or anything but i feel like my right eye is way more dominate than my left eye. i hope and pray that its all in my head. please God, let it be in my head. hopefully if I start eating better and drinking better i won't have pain in my chest. i need to be healthy.
starting tomorrow I have a lot of work to do in all of my classes. I have to go to class pretty much the entire time this week. I know I can do it! I have two homeworks due on Monday, a paper on Tuesday, test and homework on Thursday but then I'm going home on Thursday. I hope that I can work out all four days that I'm there. Not just a lame workout but a legit workout where I can lose a few pounds. I just need to make sure that I cut the drinking out. i don't even want to know how much i weigh right now. i only have one more semester left, I gotta finish off with a bang. unfortunately I've been too busy worrying about my social life and not my academic life. hopefully tomorrow starts that. fortunately, my homesickness is starting to go away and I don't have any crazy headaches. yes. i love it.
prayers:
-for motivation, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE give me motivation. i need it.
-my eyes; that they stop being gay and that i can be me again. honestly, since november 18th I have NOT felt like myself. pretty much everyday since then has been a struggle. some better than others.
-the roommates: we've been doing awesome lately and i love it
-that i continue to seek the Lord daily! and not weekly at church!
i love you all, thanks for everything!
starting tomorrow I have a lot of work to do in all of my classes. I have to go to class pretty much the entire time this week. I know I can do it! I have two homeworks due on Monday, a paper on Tuesday, test and homework on Thursday but then I'm going home on Thursday. I hope that I can work out all four days that I'm there. Not just a lame workout but a legit workout where I can lose a few pounds. I just need to make sure that I cut the drinking out. i don't even want to know how much i weigh right now. i only have one more semester left, I gotta finish off with a bang. unfortunately I've been too busy worrying about my social life and not my academic life. hopefully tomorrow starts that. fortunately, my homesickness is starting to go away and I don't have any crazy headaches. yes. i love it.
prayers:
-for motivation, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE give me motivation. i need it.
-my eyes; that they stop being gay and that i can be me again. honestly, since november 18th I have NOT felt like myself. pretty much everyday since then has been a struggle. some better than others.
-the roommates: we've been doing awesome lately and i love it
-that i continue to seek the Lord daily! and not weekly at church!
i love you all, thanks for everything!
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