so today God completely showed some humility in my life. i thought i had it all figured out but I definitely did not.
we had tryouts again and I didn't think much of it. i was already "on the team" so I just went out there and played just like any other day. i get the email today saying that i didn't make the team. apparently, the coaches wanted to better teammate. i was told i was a better player but I wasn't making enough improvements towards the end of the semester (even though i went to the emergency room cause i was pretty sick). apparently my commitment wasn't there (even though i went to practice the day i got out of the hospital and tried my hardest). i'm not going to lie, I am pissed because I know I am better than the other kid. yep, i can say that with 100% confidence. better. apparently this could have been decided with a simple coin toss. a coin toss. wtf? really? when that's said, it's based on who the coaches like better. well, now we know.
fortunately, God has given me a peace almost immediately after this happened. I hope and pray that God has something bigger for me this semester and I can't wait to see what it is. this has opened up a lot of time for me during the week to improve on my studies and get personal work-out time. i know that His plan is bigger and way better. because of this, i need not worry. i just wished my coach the best and thanked him for his time. hopefully when and if I go to a&m, i'll be able to get some payback in the sweetest of ways. now i'm scared I'll never ever play again. i'm going to become one of the pick up players and that's lame. they should've just given it to me because i am a SENIOR this is my LAST EFFING SEMESTER. the other kid has another year to play. oh well.
ok, that's it. i'm done bitching. i mean, this situation could be in the complete opposite right now. i could be the one on the team and he could be the kid that didn't make it. i wonder how that would be for him.
prayer request:
-for me and that I will still keep my head lifted way up high. i mean i'm pissed that i didn't make it but its not the end of the world.
-that the team loses every game this semester
-i pray that you completely disregard the second prayer request, i'm only kidding
-for depression, headaches, boredom and homesickness
love ya guys
Monday, January 26, 2009
Sunday, January 18, 2009
year 2008 recap
so I wanted to do a recap of the year 2008. i love blogging and i love recaps.
so the new year started off in probably the lamest of ways (according to most people). when the clock struck 12:00 AM 2008, I was sitting at home watch LOST. yep, watching LOST. I didn't really feel like doing much for the new year. The majority of my friends were in Costa Rica and I don't remember where Cotton was. Oh well, it wasn't bad. Before we went back to school a group of my friends decided to take a one-day camping trip in Bastrop which was tons of fun. That's where I first found out about Chad and Carly (teehee). Went back to school to finding out that my volleyball team would be no more because of lame drama involving some of the players on the first team and the presidents of the club. Oh well. I was initially bummed because I wouldn't be able to play and I wouldn't get the exercise but I was happy that I could finally start going to bible study at the Alamo on tuesday nights with Brett and Vince. Classes that semester was okay; they were not too difficult. It was at Kari's going away party that I told Sarah Johnson that I was maybe thinking about going back to camp that summer if I found someone to sublease my room. I had not told anyone else because I thought the chances of that were slim to nil. I did not have a job at Westwood locked up but I still wasn't freaking out. So the Saturday after my Intercultural final, I drove home to Texas City to spend Mother's Day with my family and to hang out for about a week and a half. That Mother's Day is when I got the text from Amanda asking me if anyone in my house needed a sublease. Long story short, this guy ended up subleasing my room and I got to go to camp ALL SUMMER LONG!
At camp, orientation was interesting. I was the awkward returner that no one knew because I wasn't there the year before. First session I got paired up with two of the coolest guys ever in cabin 52 which were eleven year olds. Second session I was in cabin 54 with some of the craziest kids ever. that session was a struggle for me. I had a cold for a few days and my kids were crazy. they made those two weeks the longest two weeks ever. i demanded that i be put on SWAT third session. i think i would've been with kids that session but I needed a break. SWAT was just that, a break. not from hard work but from kids. i loved the SWAT team and had a good time but it was hard work. getting up super early and going to sleep way late. needless to say, i was very excited when i left for day off between third and fourth session. they tried to keep us there as long as they could and we finally got out. what made me even more excited was the fact that i got put in the summit with high school freshman. awesome. these kids were studs. even more awesome was when i was in the SAME cabin for fifth session with even awesomer kids. they rocked. sixth session i was with yale (awesome) and that was a pretty long week as well. i didn't think it would end. but it did and i was sad. time flew by way to fast. on closing day sixth session it was crazy because we had to close camp and it was hilarious getting the blobs out and breaking down a lot of stuff. we finally finished so we celebrated with dinner, a quick blob session and discounted stuff from the store. the night got even more exciting when we all went to sam's to watch michael phelps win i think his fourth and fifth medals. that next day was surreal. i couldn't believe it was over. i was one of the last to leave because ryan didn't wake up until late. it was so weird seeing everyone leave and leaving the place i had been for the past three months knowing that i didn't think i was going to be there. this was truly one of the greatest things to ever happen in my life. as we left we drove by the waterfront, fieldhouse and the ball fields and I knew that a life-long relationship with Camp Ozark had begun. I told myself that that would not be the last time I came to camp. I drove home with ryan and it was a lot of fun. My parents (who I missed SO much) picked me up and we went straight to bravos with the rest of the family! Yay!
School started and I decided that I wanted to get back into BYX. A big part of me getting back into BYX was because of the coolest freshman dudes I had met that past summer at camp. I knew who I wanted and I wasn't going to stop until I got him (i did) but not without some "convincing." But that's a story for another time. So BYX was going great and it was time for volleyball to start. The team was way different than the year's past and I was unsure if I wanted to continue because the chemistry wasn't there. Eventually, the team blew away my expectations and we started to come together as a team. I try my hardest to have that senior leadership with all of the youngins but it's tough because we know I struggle with encouragement. Texas/ou weekend was the most fun out of the four years I've gone. Maybe because I was 21 and/or maybe because we BTHO #1 ou. Oh yeah, I also had to take two classes at ACC. They were gay but I ended up with a C in both of them cause I did some serious slacking. Oh well.
And then I got sick...oh well. Don't really feel like talking about it. If you wanna know more you can just scroll on down and read about it. It sucked and I hated it but I needed something to get me back on track with the Lord. He's awesome and I'm a screw-up. Together, we rock. Apart, I suck. Finished finals off the best way I could and came home for over a month. Went to phoenix and had an AMAZING TIME! That kinda brings me to today. I'm going back to Austin tomorrow for my last and final semester at Texas. wow. how things have gone so fast. i hate it. i don't want to grow up. i want to be eighteen forever. oh well. I hope you enjoyed this recap, I have to go pick up my little brother.
thanks, peace and love.
hectee
so the new year started off in probably the lamest of ways (according to most people). when the clock struck 12:00 AM 2008, I was sitting at home watch LOST. yep, watching LOST. I didn't really feel like doing much for the new year. The majority of my friends were in Costa Rica and I don't remember where Cotton was. Oh well, it wasn't bad. Before we went back to school a group of my friends decided to take a one-day camping trip in Bastrop which was tons of fun. That's where I first found out about Chad and Carly (teehee). Went back to school to finding out that my volleyball team would be no more because of lame drama involving some of the players on the first team and the presidents of the club. Oh well. I was initially bummed because I wouldn't be able to play and I wouldn't get the exercise but I was happy that I could finally start going to bible study at the Alamo on tuesday nights with Brett and Vince. Classes that semester was okay; they were not too difficult. It was at Kari's going away party that I told Sarah Johnson that I was maybe thinking about going back to camp that summer if I found someone to sublease my room. I had not told anyone else because I thought the chances of that were slim to nil. I did not have a job at Westwood locked up but I still wasn't freaking out. So the Saturday after my Intercultural final, I drove home to Texas City to spend Mother's Day with my family and to hang out for about a week and a half. That Mother's Day is when I got the text from Amanda asking me if anyone in my house needed a sublease. Long story short, this guy ended up subleasing my room and I got to go to camp ALL SUMMER LONG!
At camp, orientation was interesting. I was the awkward returner that no one knew because I wasn't there the year before. First session I got paired up with two of the coolest guys ever in cabin 52 which were eleven year olds. Second session I was in cabin 54 with some of the craziest kids ever. that session was a struggle for me. I had a cold for a few days and my kids were crazy. they made those two weeks the longest two weeks ever. i demanded that i be put on SWAT third session. i think i would've been with kids that session but I needed a break. SWAT was just that, a break. not from hard work but from kids. i loved the SWAT team and had a good time but it was hard work. getting up super early and going to sleep way late. needless to say, i was very excited when i left for day off between third and fourth session. they tried to keep us there as long as they could and we finally got out. what made me even more excited was the fact that i got put in the summit with high school freshman. awesome. these kids were studs. even more awesome was when i was in the SAME cabin for fifth session with even awesomer kids. they rocked. sixth session i was with yale (awesome) and that was a pretty long week as well. i didn't think it would end. but it did and i was sad. time flew by way to fast. on closing day sixth session it was crazy because we had to close camp and it was hilarious getting the blobs out and breaking down a lot of stuff. we finally finished so we celebrated with dinner, a quick blob session and discounted stuff from the store. the night got even more exciting when we all went to sam's to watch michael phelps win i think his fourth and fifth medals. that next day was surreal. i couldn't believe it was over. i was one of the last to leave because ryan didn't wake up until late. it was so weird seeing everyone leave and leaving the place i had been for the past three months knowing that i didn't think i was going to be there. this was truly one of the greatest things to ever happen in my life. as we left we drove by the waterfront, fieldhouse and the ball fields and I knew that a life-long relationship with Camp Ozark had begun. I told myself that that would not be the last time I came to camp. I drove home with ryan and it was a lot of fun. My parents (who I missed SO much) picked me up and we went straight to bravos with the rest of the family! Yay!
School started and I decided that I wanted to get back into BYX. A big part of me getting back into BYX was because of the coolest freshman dudes I had met that past summer at camp. I knew who I wanted and I wasn't going to stop until I got him (i did) but not without some "convincing." But that's a story for another time. So BYX was going great and it was time for volleyball to start. The team was way different than the year's past and I was unsure if I wanted to continue because the chemistry wasn't there. Eventually, the team blew away my expectations and we started to come together as a team. I try my hardest to have that senior leadership with all of the youngins but it's tough because we know I struggle with encouragement. Texas/ou weekend was the most fun out of the four years I've gone. Maybe because I was 21 and/or maybe because we BTHO #1 ou. Oh yeah, I also had to take two classes at ACC. They were gay but I ended up with a C in both of them cause I did some serious slacking. Oh well.
And then I got sick...oh well. Don't really feel like talking about it. If you wanna know more you can just scroll on down and read about it. It sucked and I hated it but I needed something to get me back on track with the Lord. He's awesome and I'm a screw-up. Together, we rock. Apart, I suck. Finished finals off the best way I could and came home for over a month. Went to phoenix and had an AMAZING TIME! That kinda brings me to today. I'm going back to Austin tomorrow for my last and final semester at Texas. wow. how things have gone so fast. i hate it. i don't want to grow up. i want to be eighteen forever. oh well. I hope you enjoyed this recap, I have to go pick up my little brother.
thanks, peace and love.
hectee
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
i need words
i need words
as wide as sky
i need a language large as
this longing inside
i need a voice
bigger than mine
i need a song to sing you
that i've yet to find
i need you
i need you
i need you
i need you
to be here now
to be here now
to hear me now
to hear me now
as wide as sky
i need a language large as
this longing inside
i need a voice
bigger than mine
i need a song to sing you
that i've yet to find
i need you
i need you
i need you
i need you
to be here now
to be here now
to hear me now
to hear me now
Thursday, January 08, 2009
top 5 greatest places in the world (according to me)
so I was wondering what I could write about for the 2009 and I've come up with some pretty good ideas. the first thing i want to write about is the top 5 greatest places on the world for me, so far. here it goes
5. Austin, Texas - I can remember the first time I came to Austin. When I was in eighth grade, my cousin graduated from McNeil and their graduation was in Frank Erwin and I feel in love with place. When I moved here for good the beginning of my freshman year of college, I completely fell in love with the place. Although I don't want to raise my family here, I want all of my kids to consider going to school here (I think I decided I want my kids to go to UT or Ole Miss). I love Austin and everything that is has to offer. This is hands down, the best college town ever! It's small enough yet big enough to have loads of fun
4. My Grandma Cavazos' house - Ever since I can remember, I have always ALWAYS loved going over to her house and hanging out. When I was younger, I would ride my bike over there when I was bored at home and spend the night. I would always have such a great time over there. Something was always going on over there and I loved it and still love it. When I came down this break, I ended up spending an entire weekend over there just because. There is something about that place that I can't get enough of. I've probably spent 1000 nights over there.
3. Darrell K. Royal - Texas Memorial Stadium - DKR on a saturday night is unparalleled. I love Texas Football and I love DKR. I've seen almost every home game at DKR the past four years. I've only missed two and that was because of volleyball. I enjoy going to every game there and as a student, have only lost two games at home.
2. Camp Ozark - Without a doubt, this is one of my favorite places in the entire world. I lived at camp for three months and can't get enough of it. At first, it was hard adjusting back to "normal" life after that. I wanted to go back. I absolutely love everything about camp. I love/hate the cabins, love the ropes course, love the waterfront, love the lake, love everything. I hope and pray that that's where I end up this summer again. I'm glad knowing that the relationship I have with Ozark will always be there
1. Anywhere in the world where I'm with my entire family - Yep, this is my favorite place in the world to be. When I came home this break, I figured out that this is where I want to be, this is where I love to be. Most of the time this happens on Thanksgiving or Christmas or when its someone's birthday. I absolutely love my family. They may not be the smartest or the richest people in the world but I love them so much and I would love to be anywhere with them. I hope that one day, we can all be together in heaven. I think this might be my greatest wish.
So you now know my top five greatest places in the world. Now, it's your turn. Comment and let me know what yours are!
5. Austin, Texas - I can remember the first time I came to Austin. When I was in eighth grade, my cousin graduated from McNeil and their graduation was in Frank Erwin and I feel in love with place. When I moved here for good the beginning of my freshman year of college, I completely fell in love with the place. Although I don't want to raise my family here, I want all of my kids to consider going to school here (I think I decided I want my kids to go to UT or Ole Miss). I love Austin and everything that is has to offer. This is hands down, the best college town ever! It's small enough yet big enough to have loads of fun
4. My Grandma Cavazos' house - Ever since I can remember, I have always ALWAYS loved going over to her house and hanging out. When I was younger, I would ride my bike over there when I was bored at home and spend the night. I would always have such a great time over there. Something was always going on over there and I loved it and still love it. When I came down this break, I ended up spending an entire weekend over there just because. There is something about that place that I can't get enough of. I've probably spent 1000 nights over there.
3. Darrell K. Royal - Texas Memorial Stadium - DKR on a saturday night is unparalleled. I love Texas Football and I love DKR. I've seen almost every home game at DKR the past four years. I've only missed two and that was because of volleyball. I enjoy going to every game there and as a student, have only lost two games at home.
2. Camp Ozark - Without a doubt, this is one of my favorite places in the entire world. I lived at camp for three months and can't get enough of it. At first, it was hard adjusting back to "normal" life after that. I wanted to go back. I absolutely love everything about camp. I love/hate the cabins, love the ropes course, love the waterfront, love the lake, love everything. I hope and pray that that's where I end up this summer again. I'm glad knowing that the relationship I have with Ozark will always be there
1. Anywhere in the world where I'm with my entire family - Yep, this is my favorite place in the world to be. When I came home this break, I figured out that this is where I want to be, this is where I love to be. Most of the time this happens on Thanksgiving or Christmas or when its someone's birthday. I absolutely love my family. They may not be the smartest or the richest people in the world but I love them so much and I would love to be anywhere with them. I hope that one day, we can all be together in heaven. I think this might be my greatest wish.
So you now know my top five greatest places in the world. Now, it's your turn. Comment and let me know what yours are!
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