5. I need to find my five. I need to find my core group of five friends who I know will always be there when you need them. Well, not necessarily that but more like five friends who can always count on. I don't want to count on them to always be there but more to always help me out when I need it. I don't know if I have this yet, or at least I don't feel like I have this yet.
The other day, something pretty shitty was done to me by one of the people in my community (community - a really cheesy word Christians use to describe their group of friends, the people they live with, etc.). I won't explain what happened because it's too long to explain and frankly, I'm getting tired of talking about it. What it made me discover is that I really need to find my true community, my true group/core of about five friends. When this shitty thing happened to me, it really made me consider why I'm even friends with people like this anyway. To be honest, I feel like the people who bring most of the hurt and pain into my life are the people in my "community." These people make me feel left out, not good enough and unwanted. If I told them I felt this way, they would probably think I was crazy. I wish they knew that my spirit, literally cannot take anymore of heartache before I break down and lose it. I'm already at a really weird place regarding my relationship with the Lord and these believers that I live with aren't doing anything to help. If anything, they're pushing me farther and farther away. I told myself I would rather be alone and not talk to any of these people than to constantly be with them, getting hurt.
I'll continue this post later, I keep getting distracting by YouTube and my roommates
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Sunday
So I know it's been a while since I've updated the blog. I've been having a really lazy weekend here at the Duncan because last weekend was so crazy.
I've been hanging out with Darrell, Daniel and Devin a lot. It's been a lot of fun. We're the oldest in the house and I'm pretty sure I'll be the oldest in the house when the new year starts. Oh yeah, I'll be living in Duncan tentatively unless I find somewhere more suitable for my to live. Until then, I'll be holding it down in the back room with Devin and Daniel. Darrell will be living here when he can find a job but he says that he'll be moving back to Brenham at the end of the month. Since we're the old balls in the house, we're just going to live together. It'll work out, I think.
Work has been going well. We're in the middle of a huge deadline that has be to completed by the end of the week, next week but I think we can get it. I'm trying to make it out to Ozark for at least a few days during fourth session but I don't know if I'll be able to. With work and it taking eight hours to drive up there, it doesn't seem like I'll be able to do it.
I'm still trying to complete this post, an hour and a half later. Sorry, I get distracted by Facebook and Twitter while I'm creating a post. Also, Darrell is in the room and he's yelling and distracting me even more. Anyway, this summer is shaping up to be a great one. I'm eager for fall weather and for football season to start. I'm also eager to see where this PGi job takes me. I've started explaining to my roommate and my friends how my political aspirations are very real and I would like to start pursuing that. I guess I can make them known here: I, Hector Garza (tentative (I'll explain later)) hereby publicly announce my intentions for running for Governor in the year 2034 and/or 2038. While it may sound funny, let me assure that it is not. Pretty soon, I (generally speaking) will be the "new" Republican. In the future and currently in the present, the minority will become the majority in Texas. If the all-white Republican party wants to continue it's reign in Texas then it's going to need to branch out to the current minority. The party, however, is in luck. There just so happens to be a young, 22 year old recent graduate of The University of Texas who would consider himself conservative that would love to be the new face of the conservative minority in Texas. I'm not doing this to exploit the minorities just because I see this potential problem and have asserted myself as the solution, but this has been a dream of mine for quite some time. I will talk about this more in another post but for now, be considering my vote.
I've been hanging out with Darrell, Daniel and Devin a lot. It's been a lot of fun. We're the oldest in the house and I'm pretty sure I'll be the oldest in the house when the new year starts. Oh yeah, I'll be living in Duncan tentatively unless I find somewhere more suitable for my to live. Until then, I'll be holding it down in the back room with Devin and Daniel. Darrell will be living here when he can find a job but he says that he'll be moving back to Brenham at the end of the month. Since we're the old balls in the house, we're just going to live together. It'll work out, I think.
Work has been going well. We're in the middle of a huge deadline that has be to completed by the end of the week, next week but I think we can get it. I'm trying to make it out to Ozark for at least a few days during fourth session but I don't know if I'll be able to. With work and it taking eight hours to drive up there, it doesn't seem like I'll be able to do it.
I'm still trying to complete this post, an hour and a half later. Sorry, I get distracted by Facebook and Twitter while I'm creating a post. Also, Darrell is in the room and he's yelling and distracting me even more. Anyway, this summer is shaping up to be a great one. I'm eager for fall weather and for football season to start. I'm also eager to see where this PGi job takes me. I've started explaining to my roommate and my friends how my political aspirations are very real and I would like to start pursuing that. I guess I can make them known here: I, Hector Garza (tentative (I'll explain later)) hereby publicly announce my intentions for running for Governor in the year 2034 and/or 2038. While it may sound funny, let me assure that it is not. Pretty soon, I (generally speaking) will be the "new" Republican. In the future and currently in the present, the minority will become the majority in Texas. If the all-white Republican party wants to continue it's reign in Texas then it's going to need to branch out to the current minority. The party, however, is in luck. There just so happens to be a young, 22 year old recent graduate of The University of Texas who would consider himself conservative that would love to be the new face of the conservative minority in Texas. I'm not doing this to exploit the minorities just because I see this potential problem and have asserted myself as the solution, but this has been a dream of mine for quite some time. I will talk about this more in another post but for now, be considering my vote.
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