so today I finally received the transcript that I order from Texas so I can apply to be a substitute at the local high school. It seems like a lot of fun and I would get paid almost $80 a day. It was today that I started to reminisce on my time as a TCHS student.
i remember the first day of freshman year. i wore this orange billabong shirt that i also wore on the last day of school (i was kinda weird about that stuff. i think i did that 7th-9th grade). i didn't really know what to expect finally being at high school. i had an older sister who was a senior and an older brother who was a sophomore so i guess you could say i knew a lot of people. i knew that i wanted to play basketball so i got into the class. big mistake. i was almost immediately moved to PE and i did that for an entire year. lame. all of my other friends were in tennis 7th period. it was because i wanted to play basketball that I got stuck their. even when i was on the team i still was in PE. it wasn't that bad although there was this one time where this white kid tried to tell everyone that i had stolen profit's gold chain from the locker room when it was in fact him. i had a weird run in with that gang at the powderpuff game that year. but yeah, freshman year was alright
sophomore year i didn't make the same mistake again. my basketball career was over so i just stuck with tennis. i was the #2 player on the tennis team because i had beaten bryan h and i didn't play him again until after the team tennis season was over. that was the year that robert and i had to play two of the best tennis players to ever come out of friendswood. it was awesome. they demolished us. it was sophomore year when i went to my first party at chad k's. it was really awkward because there was some sort of rave going on inside and i don't even remember who i went with. i think it was rob. but nonetheless, it was lame. oh yeah, this was the year that i got confirmed in the catholic church. big woop.
junior year was extremely awkward. this is the year that i remember least from. maybe it was because that was when i started working. i started working at gringo's and for the most part it was fun but then some people started acting really weird towards me. i think i started going out more than i had the years before and that was fun i guess. that new years was a really fun one at travis' house. that was when that one guy got stabbed. drama. one of the ups of that year was that I got hired to be a lifeguard at the tc pools that summer. i really wanted to be a lifeguard because my sister was one and they always had the most fun and had the best parties during the summer. i was on junior guard for graduation which is the best/most popular ten junior boys and girls chosen by the school. that summer was a lot of fun. being a lifeguard was a lot of fun. it was at the end of junior school year that i started going around the crossroads crew which would pretty much set up my next couple of years
senior year started with a bang. i remember the night before school started, madison drew, kim and i went around and tagged all the seniors' cars. i had a new group of friends and a new church. i started attending grace and started hanging out with those guys and stopped my crazy ways. i somehow got a lot of positions in school. i was senior class treasure, honor choir president, NHS sgt. at arms. i was taking a full course load and also honors government. this was when i started hanging out with cotton and austin and drew and george and shawn and the kauffmans. i also went on a mission trip to mexico that christmas which was awesome! oh yeah, i got into Texas that december and A&M shortly after that. i didn't work during senior year because i convinced my parents that i was too busy with school and tennis and everything else. nonetheless, i got a lot closer with these dudes which was awesome. i see now that God was setting those relationships up. i was confused on which school i should go to for a bit because I had received a good scholarship from a&m that i wasn't even expecting. i also went skiing for the first time slash traveled on a plane for the first time. i went to boston as well and had so much fun! that easter was when someone keyed my truck. i graduated and it was a lot of fun. i also got extremely sick that summer. til this day, i still don't know what it was or what made me get sick. i was having some crazy stomach pains. it was intense. my appetite went away and it was horrible for a week. i was a lifeguard that summer as well and it was interesting. i started hanging out with another group of people on top of hanging out with cotton and them. then, on august 27th? i moved into my dorm to start college :)
so, that's just a quick recap of high school. it was alright. i think hs would have been a lot better if i had played a legit sport and was good at it. i know a lot of people in my high school had their theories and thoughts about me but none of them really knew who i was. while they were stuck here in texas city, i got to go to the best university in the world and have the time of my life. i made plenty of friends at UT, friends that I will keep for the rest of my life. high school isn't the best time of your life; college is. i firmly believe that. so that's why I don't even bother with them or their lame beliefs. trust me, i never for once thought about them when i was in Austin but i can guarantee you they were thinking about how much fun i was having. sorry if that sounds rude but some of these kids made parts of my high school career hell. i mean, i don't want to point and laugh at them I think that's one of the only things that is keeping my time here in texas city so bearable. it's because i know this isn't my life and that there are better places out there and that i will not be living here for long. and you can count on that.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
early morning rain
so this weekend was the Ozone Fall Retreat! it was so much more fun than I thought it was going to be. I mean, I knew that it was going to be a lot of fun but it was way more fun than that. I got to meet a lot of kids whom I already knew of but didn't know personally. Specifically, a lot of Memorial freshman. A lot of these kids were Matt's kids during 3rd session so it was good to finally get to meet them and hang out with them. They were a handful but I enjoyed every second of it. I had the task of sleeping in the freshman room in the cabin with the sophomores sleeping in the other with Patrick. It was a lot of fun to say the least.
Additionally, Elise and I were in charge of a dance crew called So Real Cru. It consisted of kids from Memorial and West U. That was a lot of fun as well. I got to meet some West U seniors, and some Mem High seniors and juniors who are so cool and probably too cool to hang out with me but whatever. I need to meet all the memorial kids I can. teehee.
But yeah, the weekend was awesome and I think a lot of foundation was laid between some of these kids and myself. I WILL be attending Ozone tomorrow! I don't know which one yet but I will for sure be at one of them. I think I'll go to west u tomorrow since Tommy asked me to go and I don't know if I will be at his game on Thursday and I don't know if I'll be able to go the STH/EHS game on friday so i guess I'll just go there. I'm so excited!
prayer:
-please continue praying for my relationships with kids in both memorial and west university
-please be praying for ozone. i want to do this. my passion is these kids.
-please be praying for a job right now. i hope my transcript comes in this week. i need to go get my TB test done tomorrow so I can turn everything in when my transcript comes for substituting!
-pray that i continue to eat healthy and work out so i can lose weight. and pray that whatever is going on with my eyes just stops. Lord, you can do it and I pray that it happens. I WILL STAY FAITHFUL. I WILL OVERCOME
love.
Additionally, Elise and I were in charge of a dance crew called So Real Cru. It consisted of kids from Memorial and West U. That was a lot of fun as well. I got to meet some West U seniors, and some Mem High seniors and juniors who are so cool and probably too cool to hang out with me but whatever. I need to meet all the memorial kids I can. teehee.
But yeah, the weekend was awesome and I think a lot of foundation was laid between some of these kids and myself. I WILL be attending Ozone tomorrow! I don't know which one yet but I will for sure be at one of them. I think I'll go to west u tomorrow since Tommy asked me to go and I don't know if I will be at his game on Thursday and I don't know if I'll be able to go the STH/EHS game on friday so i guess I'll just go there. I'm so excited!
prayer:
-please continue praying for my relationships with kids in both memorial and west university
-please be praying for ozone. i want to do this. my passion is these kids.
-please be praying for a job right now. i hope my transcript comes in this week. i need to go get my TB test done tomorrow so I can turn everything in when my transcript comes for substituting!
-pray that i continue to eat healthy and work out so i can lose weight. and pray that whatever is going on with my eyes just stops. Lord, you can do it and I pray that it happens. I WILL STAY FAITHFUL. I WILL OVERCOME
love.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
boo
Owl City is completely sold out in Austin. DANGIT! I should've bought my ticket a long time ago! Fortunately, they are not sold out in Houston so I think I might just have to see him in Houston by myself. Sad day.
In other news, my face has been twitching for the past day and a half. It's most likely nerves but I don't know what's making me anxious. Oh the joys of anxiety. I'm also getting some other anxiety symptoms so I don't know what's going on. I bought some bananas to help me cope so hopefully they work out.
Ozone retreat this weekend. I'm so excited to see some of my kids from camp. Specifically Ben Griffin. I haven't seen this kid since third session and it will be good to see him. Most of my other boys I've seen already excluding the Dallas/Louisiana kids. It'll be so much fun. Maybe Quentin and I will have a much-needed reconciliation. Things are so weird between us and it would be great it they weren't but I think he needs to know how I feel.
I checked my blood pressure the other day and it was 113/83. SUCK ON THAT SUCKA. Cheyeah! All the working out is finally paying off! Texas Fight! I win! Let's hope and pray that it continues to get low, get low, get low. I can do it!
An hour later, I finally come back and try to finalize. Please be praying for this weekend and time with kids. Specifically, be praying for one-on-one time with kids. I hope to spit some game this weekend. When I say game I mean Gospel slash Jesus. I know that it's going to happen. Pray that I would continue to dig into the word every single day and that I would not tire of doing this. Pray that I would watch what I eat and work out with more quality. And please pray that the substituting works out and I can hopefully start subbing soon!
I'll be back on Sunday night to let you know how the retreat went!
In other news, my face has been twitching for the past day and a half. It's most likely nerves but I don't know what's making me anxious. Oh the joys of anxiety. I'm also getting some other anxiety symptoms so I don't know what's going on. I bought some bananas to help me cope so hopefully they work out.
Ozone retreat this weekend. I'm so excited to see some of my kids from camp. Specifically Ben Griffin. I haven't seen this kid since third session and it will be good to see him. Most of my other boys I've seen already excluding the Dallas/Louisiana kids. It'll be so much fun. Maybe Quentin and I will have a much-needed reconciliation. Things are so weird between us and it would be great it they weren't but I think he needs to know how I feel.
I checked my blood pressure the other day and it was 113/83. SUCK ON THAT SUCKA. Cheyeah! All the working out is finally paying off! Texas Fight! I win! Let's hope and pray that it continues to get low, get low, get low. I can do it!
An hour later, I finally come back and try to finalize. Please be praying for this weekend and time with kids. Specifically, be praying for one-on-one time with kids. I hope to spit some game this weekend. When I say game I mean Gospel slash Jesus. I know that it's going to happen. Pray that I would continue to dig into the word every single day and that I would not tire of doing this. Pray that I would watch what I eat and work out with more quality. And please pray that the substituting works out and I can hopefully start subbing soon!
I'll be back on Sunday night to let you know how the retreat went!
Monday, September 14, 2009
6 to 10 to 5 to 0
that's how many roommates i've gone through the past three years. as you can see i've lived with at least five other dudes who were the same age, had the same interests, had the same problems, same joys and so on for the past three years. now, i live with my parents which include my mom, dad, grandmother and younger brother. i'm not going to lie, it sucks. sometimes i feel like i'm going crazy here. i know that I only have 25 more weeks until I get back to ozark (yep, i'm counting). after that, i will either start my life in houston, dallas or austin. i will no longer be in texas city. i can't describe to you how weird and frustrating it is to live here sometimes. i don't have anyone to talk to. honestly, it wouldn't be as hard if i just had one actual friend that i could hang out with daily. i have no problem hanging out with the same people over and over. so far, the people that i want to hang out with here in texas city have let me down tremendously and i wanna give up.
if you don't know me, i'm an extremely intentional person. if there is one thing in college that i've learned it's how to be intentional. i have no problem getting plans together to hang out with people but the past couple of times people have let me down. my uncle who's only two years older than me called me last wednesday and asked me if i wanted to go see a movie on friday which i replied yes. i was excited about getting to hang out with him and his wife and see this movie. well, on friday, i texted him and asked him what time he wanted to go see if and he said that he had to ask his wife and then he said that they didn't have a babysitter so no. i got kinda frustrated because how are you going to invite me to do something and then renege and not go? my lame-beat dad used to do that crap to me ALL THE TIME. i don't have time for it. i told him exactly how i felt. honestly, he kinda lost some of my trust because of that. for too long i let my real father do that stuff for me without stand up for myself (as a young child i shouldn't have to) but not anymore. i'm not going to sit here and let anyone do that to me. i'm too old for that. that's not me being stubborn, that's me protecting myself because no one else is going to.
my cousin who is seven days older than me and a recent college graduate does the exact same thing. i seriously text and call him all the time to hang out and the majority of the time he doesn't respond or call back. now i know that he doesn't have that many friends where he can't even respond/call back. the only time we hang out is when he calls me. granted he does have a daughter and a job but i wanna hang out. i should just give up because its going to be like this all the time. the funny thing was the moment i got into austin he texted me like three times asking what i was doing. weird. oh well.
the last person is my sister. i went over for her birthday and she told me to come over whenever and that she wanted me to start coming over more and everytime i've tried to come over there has been some excuse or she doesn't call/text me back until later and it never works out. this isn't coincidence, if she really wanted me to come over then should would call me and say come over. i just don't want to get suckered into someone's lies. i'm too old for that. i'm not going to let myself fall for that because that is how i got like i am in the first place so now it's up to me to make sure that i don't make the same mistake again. that's kinda why i don't wanna go to austin if i'm going feel all depressed and anxious. it's not worth it. i'm trying to live and live well, not die early because i was so freaked out.
be pray that while i might not have any actual friends here in texas city that i would run towards jesus and that jesus would be my friend each and everyday and that he can be a friend like that (john 15:13 (camp ozark 2009))! He is the only one i need, the only one that i need to answer to and the only one that i need to please. Father you are good and I pray that this happens.
if you don't know me, i'm an extremely intentional person. if there is one thing in college that i've learned it's how to be intentional. i have no problem getting plans together to hang out with people but the past couple of times people have let me down. my uncle who's only two years older than me called me last wednesday and asked me if i wanted to go see a movie on friday which i replied yes. i was excited about getting to hang out with him and his wife and see this movie. well, on friday, i texted him and asked him what time he wanted to go see if and he said that he had to ask his wife and then he said that they didn't have a babysitter so no. i got kinda frustrated because how are you going to invite me to do something and then renege and not go? my lame-beat dad used to do that crap to me ALL THE TIME. i don't have time for it. i told him exactly how i felt. honestly, he kinda lost some of my trust because of that. for too long i let my real father do that stuff for me without stand up for myself (as a young child i shouldn't have to) but not anymore. i'm not going to sit here and let anyone do that to me. i'm too old for that. that's not me being stubborn, that's me protecting myself because no one else is going to.
my cousin who is seven days older than me and a recent college graduate does the exact same thing. i seriously text and call him all the time to hang out and the majority of the time he doesn't respond or call back. now i know that he doesn't have that many friends where he can't even respond/call back. the only time we hang out is when he calls me. granted he does have a daughter and a job but i wanna hang out. i should just give up because its going to be like this all the time. the funny thing was the moment i got into austin he texted me like three times asking what i was doing. weird. oh well.
the last person is my sister. i went over for her birthday and she told me to come over whenever and that she wanted me to start coming over more and everytime i've tried to come over there has been some excuse or she doesn't call/text me back until later and it never works out. this isn't coincidence, if she really wanted me to come over then should would call me and say come over. i just don't want to get suckered into someone's lies. i'm too old for that. i'm not going to let myself fall for that because that is how i got like i am in the first place so now it's up to me to make sure that i don't make the same mistake again. that's kinda why i don't wanna go to austin if i'm going feel all depressed and anxious. it's not worth it. i'm trying to live and live well, not die early because i was so freaked out.
be pray that while i might not have any actual friends here in texas city that i would run towards jesus and that jesus would be my friend each and everyday and that he can be a friend like that (john 15:13 (camp ozark 2009))! He is the only one i need, the only one that i need to answer to and the only one that i need to please. Father you are good and I pray that this happens.
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
victorious sight
so it was when i got towed over the weekend in austin did i have an epiphany. well, the epiphany actually came after i retrieved artie from the tow yard in shady east east austin. it was 1:15 AM and i had been talking to madison about things in my life and my relationship with Christ. after we had got my car back she told me that i had a lot of things to think about and she thought it would be a good idea if i just drove home. being someone who enjoys a good road trip, i took her advice and did it. i left austin at 1:15 in the morning and got home a little after 4. while on my road trip i had some great conversation with the Lord. for a solid hour i was praying. i've never done this before. it was great. i poured my heart out to Him and started at the beginning, where the pain and suffering first started happening.
it was during this time with the Lord that I realize that i had been living my life all wrong the past couple of weeks. i was easy to fulfill my needs and desires with things of this world and not of Him. i wanted to feel better quick. i filled my void with things that were not permanent. is this finally the time where i take a stand and say that You're better than that? I hope so. I'm tired of being depressed. I'm tired of being anxious. I'm tired of being afraid. I want to be joyful and filled with life and your spirit. I want to laugh again.
my prayer: Father, you are so much bigger than my depression, my anxiety and my sickness. please, i beg you to show your power and take these away from me. i come to you now and beg for your forgiveness for how i have been acting. please reveal yourself to me; i want to see You. each and every day, allow me to pursue you without a crutch to fall back on. allow me to mature in my faith. love you.
well, my weekend in austin was a lot of fun. i let my emotions get the best of me for a while there. i had a lot of fun hanging out with a lot of different people. i definitely realized that i ran in so many circle in college which was very exhausting. it wasn't until after college did i realize that i had a lot of friends in a lot of different places. i got to play some competitive volleyball which was something i hadn't done in months. it was so exciting. so exciting that my heart got to racing because i was having so much fun. texas city is still the same. a week from friday i leave to go on the ozone fall retreat! eeeee! i'm so excited! i can't hardly wait. we are going to rock out with some high schoolers!
prayers:
-please be praying that i stay focused on my pursuit towards the Lord and that i won't let petty worldly things get in my way
-my work with ozone and that my volunteer work doesn't go unnoticed. i want to work for ozone and will hold out for that
-my relationship with my family here in texas city. pray that i can be a light for them
-that i will continue to try and improve my health by working out and eating better. i had fastfood tonight and shouldn't have. oh well.
-OZONE FALL RETREAT!
it was during this time with the Lord that I realize that i had been living my life all wrong the past couple of weeks. i was easy to fulfill my needs and desires with things of this world and not of Him. i wanted to feel better quick. i filled my void with things that were not permanent. is this finally the time where i take a stand and say that You're better than that? I hope so. I'm tired of being depressed. I'm tired of being anxious. I'm tired of being afraid. I want to be joyful and filled with life and your spirit. I want to laugh again.
my prayer: Father, you are so much bigger than my depression, my anxiety and my sickness. please, i beg you to show your power and take these away from me. i come to you now and beg for your forgiveness for how i have been acting. please reveal yourself to me; i want to see You. each and every day, allow me to pursue you without a crutch to fall back on. allow me to mature in my faith. love you.
well, my weekend in austin was a lot of fun. i let my emotions get the best of me for a while there. i had a lot of fun hanging out with a lot of different people. i definitely realized that i ran in so many circle in college which was very exhausting. it wasn't until after college did i realize that i had a lot of friends in a lot of different places. i got to play some competitive volleyball which was something i hadn't done in months. it was so exciting. so exciting that my heart got to racing because i was having so much fun. texas city is still the same. a week from friday i leave to go on the ozone fall retreat! eeeee! i'm so excited! i can't hardly wait. we are going to rock out with some high schoolers!
prayers:
-please be praying that i stay focused on my pursuit towards the Lord and that i won't let petty worldly things get in my way
-my work with ozone and that my volunteer work doesn't go unnoticed. i want to work for ozone and will hold out for that
-my relationship with my family here in texas city. pray that i can be a light for them
-that i will continue to try and improve my health by working out and eating better. i had fastfood tonight and shouldn't have. oh well.
-OZONE FALL RETREAT!
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
dearly loved
have any of you ever heard this song from jimmy needham? it's one of my current favorites even though it came out three years ago. the lyrics are great.
things these past few weeks have been okay. i went to the doctor about my high blood pressure and it turns out that i have elevated cholesterol. i have a prescription for medicine but haven't turned it in yet so i should probably do that. i'm afraid that there is going to be some crazy side effect and i'm going to be screwed. after i return from austin i will definitely start taking it. i should probably turn in the medicine tomorrow when i leave and then start taking it on sunday night. i've been working out everyday and that's been good. today, i actually woke up at 9:30 which is huge! i went to sleep pretty early last night (around 1) and woke up at 9:30 on the dot which is awesome! i like being able to wake up early. i had to force myself to get up.
i have been slacking on my relationship with jesus. i was having lunch with a friend and he was talking about how his faith was always combined with him being in some sort of christian leadership role. well, now i'm not really in a christian leadership role and can't just depend on myself getting by. he said that he wants to know how to just follow jesus and live life. well, currently i'm living life but not following jesus. don't tell me that my faith is so elementary that i need a leadership position to keep me in check. seriously, i don't do anything so following jesus should be easy! maybe if i started talking to him on a daily basis he would help with all my health issues and give me wisdom concerning them. please please be praying and please give me accountability that i would wake up everyday yearning to learn more about him. i need help yall. i'm in texas city and i don't see jesus moving here. i haven't found a church to start attending which is going to be tough. i'm going to try the fellowship soon but we'll see.
i'm pretty hungry so i'm gonna go try and find something to eat. peace out!
things these past few weeks have been okay. i went to the doctor about my high blood pressure and it turns out that i have elevated cholesterol. i have a prescription for medicine but haven't turned it in yet so i should probably do that. i'm afraid that there is going to be some crazy side effect and i'm going to be screwed. after i return from austin i will definitely start taking it. i should probably turn in the medicine tomorrow when i leave and then start taking it on sunday night. i've been working out everyday and that's been good. today, i actually woke up at 9:30 which is huge! i went to sleep pretty early last night (around 1) and woke up at 9:30 on the dot which is awesome! i like being able to wake up early. i had to force myself to get up.
i have been slacking on my relationship with jesus. i was having lunch with a friend and he was talking about how his faith was always combined with him being in some sort of christian leadership role. well, now i'm not really in a christian leadership role and can't just depend on myself getting by. he said that he wants to know how to just follow jesus and live life. well, currently i'm living life but not following jesus. don't tell me that my faith is so elementary that i need a leadership position to keep me in check. seriously, i don't do anything so following jesus should be easy! maybe if i started talking to him on a daily basis he would help with all my health issues and give me wisdom concerning them. please please be praying and please give me accountability that i would wake up everyday yearning to learn more about him. i need help yall. i'm in texas city and i don't see jesus moving here. i haven't found a church to start attending which is going to be tough. i'm going to try the fellowship soon but we'll see.
i'm pretty hungry so i'm gonna go try and find something to eat. peace out!
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