lost

so my break has consisted of watching seasons 1-3 of LOST. i'm currently on season two, episode 6. that brings my grand total to 30. i love it. i've been hangin out with jack, sawyer, kate and the gang more than I've been hangin out with anyone else.

my plans for the new years are still up in the air. i could go to mk's or i could go to brenham or i could go to austin? that's NOT going to happen. i dunno. i might just spend it watching lost by myself since the parentals will not be here. i dunno, i just don't want to do anything that i shouldn't be doing.

i've been having trouble sleeping in my house. i haven't been able to go to sleep at a decent hour. i've been waking up late in the afternoon because of it. i think i might start taking something to help me sleep. i don't have this problem when i'm in austin; i guess i'm used to my bed there.

i'm starting to get worried about school. whether or not brent hay will give me the money I need to pay for school. if he hasn't emailed me back by the second, I will email him again because I need to pay for this past semester. i know that everything will work out but I need to be trusting that everything will be okay.

"trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord, the Lord is the Rock eternal"
isaiah 26:4

i write in paragraphs way to often. i need to get out of that.

holidays

so i starting writing the other day but then stopped because I was getting restless. well now it's christmas eve and i'm watching "live at abbey road" featuring ray lamontange. it's pretty good, just acoustic ray singing "hold you in my arms." well these here days off have been...alright. i haven't been doing much in the days. I've been working out a lot more than I've ever had. Once my parents go back to work and the lowry center opens, i'll be going everyday hopefully. One setback is that I haven't been able to fall asleep before 2 and not wake up before 12. i hate it! i'm just not tired. I don't know what to do! i really hate it. i was tired around 9 but that's too early to go to sleep. i figure i won't head to bed until like 2ish but I have to wake up early tomorrow to open presents.

i'll just give quick updates on different things.

texas city friends: well i've been hangin out with rob and dj and that's been fun. i went to some party with them and apparently ericka o isn't talking to me because i "haven't talked to her in forever and i gossiped about her." don't really have much to say about that. oh well! cotton's, being...well, cotton. all over the place. i've figured out that I don't even need to talk to him when he's with his family. i felt like a huge weirdo when he told me i couldn't go to the wedding. very awkward. and then he didn't even tell me that him and ali were in texas city hanging out.

parents: they've been cool. we'll see what all i get tomorrow for christmas

financial aid: brent hay is being SUPER SKETCH. he hasn't responded to my emails, what the heck?

alone time: well that's been great?! ho yeah!


well i'm having a facebook convo with blair so i'll continue lateski

thoughts and concerns

so i met with brent hay (he's my financial aid officer) and it wasn't that bad. he said that he could get me twice the amount of texas grant and the student loan which is fine. If i need to borrow, oh well. i need to make some educational decisions that will benefit me in the future. i need to trust in the Lord that he will take me places after I graduate college. I know that he will, he's constantly guiding over me and watching me. even when I screw up, He's still got my back. that's what I love about grace. now, I just have to wait for him to email me with all the stuff so I can take care of my tuition loan of 2500. i'll email him on monday if things are still the same...

i'll finish this tomorrow

are you serious

so i clean the house all day, and how does one of my roommates thank me? by buy cotton a very large, glass bottle of expensive chocolate milk.

thanks a ton nolan. when i saw him last, he left. probably to go buy me some chocolate milk. it doesn't matter now though because the only reason that he's doing it is because he feels bad. and i don't even know if he is doing it.

well i have one week left of school. i just need to push through it. i don't have any finals so i guess that's good. I would be completely done on friday if i didn't get declared MIA in MIS. it's ok, i just have to do the business challenge online. hopefully it won't be too hard. but i will officially be done by next wednesday at five. i could still probably go home on friday if I wanted to but I want to stay back and go back to houston on a weekday. well, I have to go and talk to the financial aid office tomorrow to try and get everything sorted out. I need more money and I need a huge loan. i'm running out of money and my tuition hasn't even been paid for. not even half. what the h. I need to be trusting and faithful that God will work everything out. I need to be praying each and everyday that he will catch me like He's done so many times. I plan to really get back in the swing of things when I go home for Christmas break. I want to be in the word everyday and serving everyone anyway I can without any kind of selfishness. hopefully I can get a job so my time won't be wasted on doing stupid stuff like walking around the house aimlessly.

i'm ready for this semester to be OVER and a new semester to start. I'm ready to hopefully get back into younglife. i'm ready for new classes and hopefully a chance to do as well as I planned. i'm ready for SIVA and hopefully qualifying for nationals. it's going to be tough. I can definitely say for certain that we are the best "B" team in siva. we're better than a lot of the first teams. we could possibly beat our first team and maybe texas state's. if we did well enough, we could definitely beat a&m. they aren't that great. i really want to get a great internship this summer that will pay a lot of money. hopefully I can work with tim traister at staubach and make lots of money and get some great experience. I need to be praying that whatever happens, happens. I need to make sure that this summer will be better than the last in that I won't waste it.

it's time for youtubeski.