waiting for the adventure

so this has been a great weekend. hopefully i did good on my astronomy test. the grades have been posted since last week but i've been too afraid to check it out. if I made at aleast an 80, i would be soo happy. it would bring my average to passing which is all I care about now.

i had a really bad weekend. spiritually, i'm dead right now. i haven't been pursuing the Lord or anyone for that matter. i'm spiritually dehydrated (if that makes since). i know what i need, what i want but i'm not seeking it. i'm trying to find other things in this world to fill me up. even when surrounded by friends who are passionately pursuing the Lord. pray for me.

well, we lost to a&m. yeah, i know, gag all over the floor. i felt sick after the game. i've never felt so sick from watching a football game. i hope that we get to go to the cotton bowl. that would be sooooo awesome! i think we'd play auburn and that would be a good game. if we won, we'd definitely get some confidence back going into next season.

it's 12:39 AM and i have to wake up at 6:45 tomorrow, i'm going to sleep.

texas city

so i'm in texas city for the thanksgiving holiday. so far, it's been very uneventful. last night was fun. we had a fire at cotton's house and some people came over and we just hang out. i guess i should expect to come home and find tons of things to do. i can't wait for Christmas. i mean, i don't really know what to do/how to feel about texas city and the people who live here. what am i supposed to do? i guess i can only love on these people anyway I can. it's so different from austin. people here are just, eh, different.

i need a spiritual rejuvenation. someway or another. i feel so dry. like i'm not receiving the Spirit at all. i'm sure it's something that i'm doing or not doing. what should i do? any advice. i could probably start by reading my Bible on a daily basis instead of a weekly basis. loving people better, being more thankful, serving better. pray for that. and pray for anderson high school and it's freshman.

lyrics like it's my business:
gravity is workin' against me.

soundtrack of our lives

have you ever thought about writting a soundtrack for your life? you know, those 15 to 20 songs that give that special feeling. i've started to write them down and i carry them almost everywhere with me. i feel like these songs are the songs I could listen to for the rest of my life and be ok with it. of course, there is a good amount of TEN songs on there but what can I say? they pretty much have a hold on my life. i think it's one of the greatest thing how a song can say how you're feeling, how life is going and everything else. a lot of times, you use lyrics or songs to let people know how life is really going. i use that all the time.

man, i love music.
all-time favorite song: (as I listen to it now) open eyes - the early november (the version that I have of it on my itunes. i've found other versions but this one is definitely the best)
:)

will you shelter me?

so i've been on a posting hiatus for the past uh, few months. guess i should recap what's been happening in my world.

i came to sophomore year with very high expectations. i really wanted to play volleyball for the texas club team but that didn't happen. i tried out and thought i did fairly well but ended up not making it. i was sorta pissed afterwards but God definitely granted me peace about that. school is going, uh, pretty well. as of now, my tuition still isn't paid for because the stupid fin aid office is still holding my funds. LET IT GO! ahhhh! i'm doing pretty good in all of my classes expect for astronomy.

younglife: is going good. taylor and i are trying our hardest to not lose hope and stay encouraged. this one kid gave us a fake phone number. that was pretty cool. this other kid gave me his phone number and seemed really interested in yl. i'm definitely sucking at being consistent in his life. i should probably call him tomorrow and see how's he's doing. the team is great, we suck a football though. we beat maccallum in basketball yesterday. we were down by like 20 and managed to come back.

jobs: i'm currently 0-for-like-6-or-7. apparently people just don't like to hire here in austin. oh well, the parentals are definitely being a HUGE blessing in my life and i don't thank them enough.

house: wow, what can i say about this house. from the constant mess to the piss found on my floor, it's been a rollercoaster ride.

and now, lyrics:
the truth is you know I'm having a moment right now where everything makes sense well, I think some feeling from this sliding, smooth guitar would shred right now. and all those nights I lost by thinking way too hard and long, I finally realize just by adding some deep end, I feel alright. the truth is, you know we could never find a better friend to work with. you make us feel at home. it would make me so happy right now to hear some piano being played by my oldest friend. and all those nights I lost by thinking way too hard and long, I finally realize that I need some drums cracking, and I feel fine. the truth is, my love, that I love you so much that it hurts, oh. and as cheesy as I sound I've been practicing for the moment when I do, oh I do. and all those nights I lost by thinking way too hard and long, I finally realize as long as I have you, I'll be alright. the truth is, you know, I'd be nothing without everyone, oh.