so today God completely showed some humility in my life. i thought i had it all figured out but I definitely did not.
we had tryouts again and I didn't think much of it. i was already "on the team" so I just went out there and played just like any other day. i get the email today saying that i didn't make the team. apparently, the coaches wanted to better teammate. i was told i was a better player but I wasn't making enough improvements towards the end of the semester (even though i went to the emergency room cause i was pretty sick). apparently my commitment wasn't there (even though i went to practice the day i got out of the hospital and tried my hardest). i'm not going to lie, I am pissed because I know I am better than the other kid. yep, i can say that with 100% confidence. better. apparently this could have been decided with a simple coin toss. a coin toss. wtf? really? when that's said, it's based on who the coaches like better. well, now we know.
fortunately, God has given me a peace almost immediately after this happened. I hope and pray that God has something bigger for me this semester and I can't wait to see what it is. this has opened up a lot of time for me during the week to improve on my studies and get personal work-out time. i know that His plan is bigger and way better. because of this, i need not worry. i just wished my coach the best and thanked him for his time. hopefully when and if I go to a&m, i'll be able to get some payback in the sweetest of ways. now i'm scared I'll never ever play again. i'm going to become one of the pick up players and that's lame. they should've just given it to me because i am a SENIOR this is my LAST EFFING SEMESTER. the other kid has another year to play. oh well.
ok, that's it. i'm done bitching. i mean, this situation could be in the complete opposite right now. i could be the one on the team and he could be the kid that didn't make it. i wonder how that would be for him.
prayer request:
-for me and that I will still keep my head lifted way up high. i mean i'm pissed that i didn't make it but its not the end of the world.
-that the team loses every game this semester
-i pray that you completely disregard the second prayer request, i'm only kidding
-for depression, headaches, boredom and homesickness
love ya guys
2 comments:
Hect, I am sorry to hear this, but you are right, God has something different in mind. I pray that He will show you this and keep you going! My struggle right now is not having a job and a purpose. Pass on the word to the Big Man if you can. I neeeeed a job.
Hectee, I'm so bummed to hear the news. I couldn't believe it when I read it but like you said, the Man upstairs has a plan! I know you do truly believe that and you know that's the truth, and I hope this won't have a negative effect on any other areas of your life, especially since this is your last semester at UT. It is what it is and let God continue to comfort you... and please use me/us/your friends to fill in that time with some meaningful relationships! Basically, I guess I'm saying I miss you? Yeah. I miss Hectee! Love you tons.
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