i feel like the only love i give out sometimes is tough love. i think because it's the only love that I was given a child so it's the only thing I know. i'm trying to find a way to give love that is pure and from the heart. i don't want it to be fake or structured but real.
on a side note: i've been trying to get Jesus in everyday. He's already revealed to me that I need to do a better job at loving my parents specifically my Mom. She's in dyer need of joy in her life and I pray that through Him, she's able to find that. My mom knows truth and spirit but I feel like she can't fully let go and let God. Pray for her and that she would be able to be vulnerable even though the world tells her to do it on her own. Like me, she is also very independent and that's what I feel is holding her back.
a lot of stuff is going wrong with volleyball. the first team is being way crazy which is causing our coach to want to not coach us which I can't let happen. If he leaves, then I don't see any reason for me or any of us to stay. It's not worth it. He's worked so hard this past semester and I know how he feels when one of his best players is taken away. Be praying that I can act godly in this situation and I won't let my emotions get the best of me. I know that Adler can coach us to victory, he's a great coach. I want to step up and be a better player. I want to play where ever he puts me. I can definitely set all-around, I just need him to be confident that I can do it.
listen to kina grannis, she's my new obsession.
www.myspace.com/kinagrannis
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