summer 2008

so I still don't have a job for the summer. I will probably wake up on Saturday morning and go try and talk to Brody. I'm going to turn in my application and try and persuade him to hire me. I will tell him that I'm experienced and that I could be a headguard and that I wouldn't do anything wrong and that I'm a good guard. I need a job. Even if I start in June, that would be fine. I'd work my butt off the entire summer. If not, I don't know what I'm going to do. I told Sarah Johnson yesterday that if I could find someone to sublease my room, I'd go to camp all summer. The chances of that happening are slim to none but I would love it if that were to happen. I wouldn't have to worry about paying rent or anything and I'd be saving around $1000. If I were to go to camp, I'd probably make somewhere around $2000. That on top of my $2000 scholarship from Oneok would be around $4000, which would be good to start off. I should be getting a lot more financial aid then the past years which will help me out a lot. Depending on how much scholarship I get, that will determine how much loan I need to take out. I'm just scared that I will miss out on stuff that I shouldn't. For example, last summer. It was a complete waste. I wish I would've subleased my room and gone to camp the entire summer. I could've subleased it to pretty much anyone. I was in the house for the majority of the summer by myself so it really wouldn't have mattered who stayed there. Of course, I was dumb and didn't think of it. I could've went home and worked for the pool, no, probably not. Stupid.

I don't want to spend this summer as depressed as last summer. That's what I'm so scared about. Its stuff like that that make me feel depressed.

i'm gonna watch true life now. thanks computer for being awesome and taking up my life now.