its 4:23 in the AM and i cannot sleep. some crazy things have been happening this past week. i'll tell you the story in hopes that i'm extremely tired when i'm finished with it. soooooo for the past month or so camp ozark has been heavy on my heart. i can't stop thinking about that place. i didn't know when i left whether or not i would be able to make it back to that lovely little establishment six miles west of mount ida, arkansas. feeling it so heavy on the heart, i finally let someone know how i was feeling. I told sarah johnson last wednesday that i would like to go back to camp this summer. she said that i should go! i told her that there was no way that i could go back to camp without someone subleasing my room. i told her that i'd pray about it and i asked her if she would too. so i casually prayed about it but knew that it wouldn't happen. it was soo late in may that i figured no one would need a sublease. on sunday, amanda neugebauer texted me and asked if anyone in my house needed a sublease for the summer. she said that one of her friends was interviewing for a job at the capitol with the governor and he needed a place to stay if he got the job. i told her my situation and was extremely giddy. right then and there, at bonnies in houston, i decided that if this guy subleased my room, i'd make my way back to camp ozark for the ENTIRE summer. so, i called pendley and asked her what i needed to do. she told me that i needed to email or call steven and let him know. i wanted to be sure of the sublease before anything happened.
well michael interviewed on Monday with the governor. we messaged each other back and forth on facebook and he told me that the interview went well. he told me that he would know by the end of the week whether or not he got the job. i emailed steven on monday night and told him my situation. i was afraid that i would have this guy subleasing my room and not getting hired back. steven didn't call me until wednesday morning. he actually woke me up. he talked to me and told me that they were actually good on guys but that he would love if i were to come up there and work. i was so excited! that was one hurdle that i needed to jump in order to obtain my goal of working at camp. the past two days have been crazy because i want to know whether or not michael got the job. i realized that two people would receive such huge blessings in this. michael would get a great job and i would have the chance to go back to the place i had so much fun. with that being said, i need to tell myself that if this doesn't work out, that's okay. it wasn't in God's plan for me to be back in mt. ida. i just feel like all of this wouldn't have happened for no reason though. there's a little part of me that is telling me that this is going to happen and then there is a bigger part of me telling me that i'm crazy to think this will happen. i want God to show up, i want him to prove me wrong. I started to think about going back even if he doesn't sublease my room. could I afford that? if i did that, i would need to accept that other loan money to even things out. that's something that i would have to think about. i just want to be at camp all summer. i guess if i really wanted to be there, i would do whatever it takes to get there.
If you're reading this, its probably friday morning or friday afternoon and by now, i probably know whether or not Michael got the job. i may or may not go to camp if he doesn't get the job. i want to find out if its going to be worth it. the thing is, i have a job at camp; i don't have a job in austin. yeah, i'll probably make around 2000 but almost 900 of that will go to rent and bills for this summer. if you could pray for my situation, that'd be great. i'll let you know everything that happens!
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