meh

I haven't written in a while so I just wanted to update and let yall know how things are going. To be honest, these past few days have been pretty lame. I still don't have a job but have applied for a couple. I've been feeling the heat from the parents and it's starting to burn. And I, of course, instead of running as fast as I can towards Jesus, I just get angry and mad and run away from Him. These are the most trying times in which I need to seek Him and His plan over mine. It just seems like everyday I fall short again and again. I'm tired of it. I swear I'm like a microwave, I just turn on and off, on and off. I want to be on the entire time! I want to be on fire for Jesus!

The weird thing is that God completely answered my prayers and took something from my life that was adding to my struggles. It was weird because I knew that this was a total God thing but I didn't realize that this was a sign from him saying "Hey, don't do that anymore. I'm taking this out of your life so you can't." I have found other ways around it but it hasn't been as bad as it used to be. Still, I know that I could have been living my life these past couple of weeks without this struggle in my life. God is testing me right now and I'm failing. Pray that I can pass this test.

I'm still searching for a job as I indicated earlier in the post. If anyone knows anyone working in the Galveston-Texas City area in a government job, please let me know! I've been looking for a job at the County and the City offices. I believe this to be a great stepping stone to whatever comes next. Please be praying that I actively pursue jobs more and more! God just won't provide one for me if all I do is watch TV all day! I need to get my butt up and put some effort into it.

It seems like all of my posts are like this. I want to be able to write about the good God is doing in my life and not just all the wamp-wamp stories. I can report that these past few days with my brother have been good! Also, I got to hang out wit some of my extended family the other day and that was a lot of fun! My cousin came down from San Antonio and we hung out at my aunt's house for a while after taking all the kids to this christmas light show in Dickinson. Praise Him for family time and for time with friends in College Station! I'm going to stay positive and I'm going to keep on pursuing Him the best way I can and know how! I will overcome and I will NOT be mastered by my struggles and shortcomings!