dispense

wow, so I haven't written in here in a very long time so I figured I drop in a line or two. The last couple of weeks have been interesting. We're still looking for a house for next year slash Devin isn't living with us anymore. He decided very briefly that he wanted to live with Joe and that whole crew so I dunno. Honestly, I'm pretty disappointed in his decision because I figured he was pretty sold out with living with us. I know that I can't be mad about it but its going to take time because I feel let down by him which is something that goes away quickly. To be even more honest, this entire process of finding a house is so stressful that I don't want to deal with it. It's pretty ridiculous. I wish that I didn't have to deal with it. Unfortunately, I have to and I don't know how we're going to find somewhere to live this late. Hopefully everything will work itself out.

My heart is a constant battlefield between good and evil. While I know that I need Christ and his mission for me, I constantly sin and choose evil over good which scares me. I need to focus on the now and not the future. When I focus too much on the future, I tend to lose sight on the now and it gets ridiculous. Oh well, I gotta stay strong for Christ. I gots to. I know that I can and I know that he will give me wisdom and courage for every situation.

I really need to figure out what I'm doing this summer. I have to turn in my Westwood application THIS WEEK! If I don't there is probably no way that I will be able to work there. Its such an easy job and I feel like I can make more money this summer than I did last summer plus my financial aid package should be pretty large which is awesome!

Well, I know that I didn't add any pictures to this post but no one really reads it anyway so...yeah.