figured it out

for a couple of weeks there, i had it. i was doing so well. it was really encouraging to be doing so well and knowing that I was actively pursuing the Lord each day. i kinda just lost all of it two days ago. i let my guard down and gave in. into sin. I'm not going to let it ruin my walk. i can't. i shouldn't. i still need to pursue Christ and His people well each and everyday. whether it'd be my own community or people i work with at Westwood. show each and every person God's love, like He showed us.

This year is going to be my best yet, I just know it. I feel like God has big things in store for me this year. I can't wait! I'm excited. I really want to work on being a selfless person. I can't forget that it isn't for my gain, but for the kingdom. Whether it'd be with a younglife kid or one of my friends who just doesn't feel like appreciating what they have in front of them. I want to do things out of the goodness of my heart. not to seek approval for men but by God. I want to actively pursue people who I don't usually pursue. One, John Porter. I've never really had a heart-to-heart with porter. I'd like to. Some others include...

-nolan dean
-marshall rimmer
-craig lauck

those are all of the ones that I can think of off the top of my head. I of course want to start with my roommates, let God use me where I am. I've been learning that lesson all summer, why forget it? I love my new house. It's really nice. I can't wait for everyone to get here. I can't wait for Chad to get here. I will definitely be praying for our relationship this year, I think we'll do great.

listen to my heart - paramore. it will blow you away